I found that through my life I was a pretty bad manipulator. While I strive to stray away from it today in life, it doesn’t change the fact. I used to pride myself on how manipulative I was and that how the only thing in life that I couldn’t manipulate was “Time”. Funny how true this is ringing in my ears today. Due to my addictive personality and getting my DUI, I’m screwed financially. I know the solution, the problem is that there isn’t a instantaneous one, not legally anyways. So, now time is my biggest adversity right now. I can find more work, look for a second and third job but, when you need money by the 28th, I can’t do anything about the TIME involved in what I’m trying to do. Even if I found a second job tomorrow, I wouldn’t get my first paycheck until the following two weeks.
This is killing me. Every day I sleep in my car, don’t have a place to go after work, no money to even move my car and everything else going on in my life is killing me. What I do know, is that I have to stay on the path I’m going and eventually, with TIME, I will pull out of this mess and leave it behind me.
Walking away from it stronger and better for it.
mikelewis001 